tired of being a virgine!! please give me your opinion

So im 17 and im a virgin, now ik im still young but im tired of it ive had opportunities to lose it but ive never had a real bf and ive been waiting so it would be special but at this point i just wanna lose it i mean i think... im going on vaction with my gradr for are senior year grade trip  and im scared i will get drunk and just lose it so I feel like i should just lose it before but im scared to regret it cause ive always wanted it to be wih someone that loves me but at the same time what does it matter? Is it really that special? For the people that waited do you thibk it was better, or is sex just sex and it dosent matter your first time?? Like idk what to doooooo?????!!! Doni keep waiting or there no point since eventually ill have sex with someone I love and loves me and it wont change if I waited or not