When will i get the hang of things

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Im a ftm. My bf goes to college all day and plays college football. My mom goes to work full time because she's a manager. So in home alone with a new born baby I feel like I can't get up and clean some time can't eat can't take showers but as soon as they get her I can finally do I cry because I wish I can just do it on my own but I can't so I just get anxiety built up and just cry.