Sexual Assault Survivor (Trigger warning if that bothers you)

I'd like to keep my identity hidden because it does not matter who I am. I would just like to brag on myself and other survivors who break through their barriers. My husband just started working thirds and my barrier is my nightmares and paranoia at night. I was so afraid of him not being by me throughout the night that weeks before he took the job, I was so angry with him for switching to this job (more money and able to receive more pay raises in the future) that I would barely speak to him. Now, at 2:30 am I sit here alone and I'm not scared. Although it takes me awhile to fall asleep, I'm so freaking proud of myself to be able to fall asleep at all. I feel so content with myself. I feel so powerful. I feel as though I'm FINALLY above my rapist as this problem was his fault, he no longer has a hold on me, he no longer can scare me. I've finally broken free.