weight...the struggle

I know this sounds so selfish. But I have always struggled with weight. I gained 75lbs with my first and was very very overweight and unhealthy. About a year later I really started working on my weight and health and got in decent shape and lost a lot of weight. I haven't gained a terrible amount of weight with this pregnancy...so far 12-14lbs and I'm 22 weeks. I'm very happy with that. I know I need to focus on being happy about having a healthy growing baby boy inside me. I just am so insecure and feel so ugly all the time. All of my weight gain seems to be in my hips, butt, and arms. I know I can lose it again after the baby is born but right now I just want to feel sexy...and I don't 😩