Does any one else do this ?

Back in October I found out I was pregnant , not even a week later I found out I was losing my very first baby . 2 and 1/2 weeks later I passed the baby . I always think about how right now I would be almost 4 months pregnant and how much I miss my angel . I've been trying since I was 18 to have a baby and the first time I get pregnant almost 3 years later , I lose it . does any one else think of how different your lives would be if you didn't miscarry ?