Over 21 weeks, but still no movements

Elizabeth • Mama of one boy 2017 and two on the way 2021
I'm pregnant with our first baby and I've been having such a hard time. Finally stopped throwing up, but my energy levels are still so low, and I'm having such a hard time breathing. I'm going to be 22 weeks on Thursday (2nd) and I still don't feel like I'm carrying a child. I'm not really showing, and I don't feel his movements. Am I alone in this? I'm a just being crazy? I would love to feel him in there, and every time we go for an ultrasound, he's very active, but I want to FEEL his activeness (yes I know that's not a word). Does that make me a bad person, to compare myself to all 15 people I know in my personal life who are pregnant and feeling their children and showing already? I'm just really wanting the experience everyone else is seeming to have. I feel so ashamed of wanting it so badly and just wanted to share my thoughts and feelings. Thank you for listening.