ughhhh I'm going nutz!!!

I'm 10dpo af is supposed to start on Saturday 41h. I couldn't help myself but I have been testing wit hpt just to see weather or not I would get a BFP or BFN😐🤔 I got 2 BFN's and two vvvvfl BFP😟 I'm sitting here driving myself crazy 😜 should I believe the BFP or BFN's???... I don't want to tell my husband anything yet because I don't want him to get upset 😭 or happy 😊, it would break my heart to see the disappointment in his face😔😌☹️!!!!!!!! I'm hoping and praying for this is our new bundle of joy🙏🏽👶🏾🍼🙏🏽👶🏾🍼🙏🏽👶🏾🍼🙏🏽👶🏾😊💕💕😊😊😘😘😘...... I'm going to try my hardest to way until af is late and retest and see what happens, if it's meant to be I will definitely know then!!!!! Good luck to all the ladies out there going through this same exact thing, we're in this together😘😘💕💕😊😊🙏🏽👶🏾🍼