Miserable please no hate I'm just venting

Man I feel just horrible I see all these post about what an amazing time other people have with their pregnancies and I'm over here screaming is it over yet?!?! I mean I have my good days but here lately it seems less and less. Maybe it's just my depression and anxiety disorders mingled together but man this has been a rough go about. My daughter is about to be 11 and she was born a month early so this whole month has been a mystery and full of pain and suffering on my end. First off let's go back to the first trimester when I was so sick I lost 60lbs, and I'm diagnosed with HPV (not really sweating that I just gave my hubby some teasing about it lol) then at 4 1/2 months I'm diagnosed with hypoglycemia totally delta with that like a boss, but still couldn't keep weight on I was losing an average of 6lbs every month, at 26 weeks we are diagnosed with not only hypoglycemia but gestational diabetes and graves disease, at thay time not only do i have my prenatal appointments but I'm in physical therapy 3 times a week and having to go see the edocrynologist (I think I spelt that correctly) every 2 weeks and stick myself up to 16 times a day, thank god I've managed to keep my sugar levels stable by my diet alone! Now let's get to the present day... I'm 7 days away from maternity leave I can bairly stand let alone walk for my 8 hour shift (I'm a waitress) it takes me 30 minutes to stuff my fat leg sized feet into my work shoes, I can't get up without help I finally stopped losing weight a few weeks ago it was at a stand still until I went to the doctor today and found out I put on 10 lbs in 1 week now she's a good concerned so I have to have a growth sono next week (I don't mind I get to see my little guy the more the merrier!) I feel worthless can't bend I can't stand long enough to do anything I have to have help for everything down to getting my freaking pants on my legs! I'm in constant pain I have developed mastisis in my boobs so every move I make is like daggers throughout my breasts. Uhg I'm just all around miserable. I feel like a horrible person! Don't get me wrong I'm totally excited and happy about my little man but I will be so happy when this pregnancy is over with!