Mommies that are Nurses!

I'm 32 weeks pregnant. Expecting our first rainbow baby. 

I work in a hospital, three '12's' a week on day shift. Im an RN. I'm having a c section at 39 weeks. I'm completely overwhelmed about what I'm going to do when I go back to work after I have the baby.  Work is always stressful, a lot of times I don't have time for lunch, I often leave knowing I didn't hydrate enough for me and baby. I hardly ever get to leave at 7:30 pm when I am supposed to. Usually it's around 8:30. Today I left at 9:30 pm. I got there at 7:00am!!!! 

How the heck will I have time to pump? Getting time to sneak away to pump and have someone watch my patients... is not going to be easy. I know it's only 3 days a week. But thinking about being away from her from 5am- possible 10 pm makes me heartbroken. 

I'm so tired of the hospital life and being overworked. Drama, stress... it's just nuts. This just doesn't feel worth it. I want to give my baby the best mommy. I just feel like me being constantly exhausted(physically and emotionally) from work will not be good for me or baby. I feel like it's time for change... but where? And obviously I can't change jobs right now because I'll lose insurance and no one wants to hire a very pregnant woman! 

I don't know what I'm going to do.