freak undercover?

So so far I've had sex twice altogether with two different guys and the second guy I am currently still messing around with WE we're going to have sex again yesterday but he forgot his condom and I didn't have one either so I blew him and blew his brains out☺️ but honestly in my head Im a sex god and when I'm having sex in my head I'm really confident and there's so many different positions im doing but within the two times I've had sex all the things Ik I can do and want to do I'm really too shy too and ik if I were to do them it would blow this boys mind away but I'm also afraid I would look weird or I would mess up and I wouldn't be doing it right or it wouldn't be good for him but I'm really freaky and sometimes I'm just too shy to show it like I imagine riding tf out of him but ik when we do have sex again I'd be too shy to theres so many positions I want to do and I'm very controlling so I would tell him what I want but idk I hope someone understands me and can help Please comment