Insecure 😯

I hate being so insecure. I feel like it's putting a big hold in my life. Sometimes I don't hang out with ppl BC I think they're gonna think I'm weird.. Which leads to not having any friends 😐. I am married and Im always jealous if my husbands even speaks to another woman BC I think he's gonna find her more interesting ie sexier or even smarter. I look at my self in the mirror and I see horror. I hate having this mentality and it's depressing. My his and and I fight BC of it.. What can I do to stop this..