I quit cutting 57 days ago but sometimes I think that if I had more scars or something to change the way I look that I wouldn't be as effected by this....

I can't look at myself without seeing the same person who let this go on for three years. Every time it happened I would say no and tell him to stop. I would try to push him off me and I would cry and yell but I never reported it. And now he gets to walk free and could maybe do this to another girl. I know I can't go back and change anything but I really regret not reporting him and staying with him for so long. He lives down the road from me and I have to see him all the time... sometimes I can't imagine how I'm supposed to get through the day