So I'm 20 years old and a virgin but I have a really high drive. I masterbate alot. I met this guy that had a high sex drive too and I was super attracted to him but things didn't work out. I'm not a virgin for any real reason I've just never gotten to that point in any relationship and before I have sex I want to be on some type of birth control just so I have all my bases covered. Sometimes I really feel like I just want to get rid of my virginity so it's not something that I have to worry about when I meet a guy that I'm super sexually attracted to. Things get hot and heavy and then I have this moment where I really want to have sex with this guy and things get weird because we both know I'm a virgin and the first time is going to be awkward or painful or both and suddenly we go from hot and heavy to tumbleweeds in a desert. And some guys see being somebody's first as this prize, you know? I've had people tell me that they know somebody that would have sex with me just so they could be my first and I honestly don't know how to reply to shit like that. Since my sex drive is high I have moments where I feel like it's such a nuisance to be a virgin and trying to date. I guess I just wanted to vent and see if there's anybody that has the same moments or just understands because they've been through it. 🤷🏽‍♀️