Weight

Today I went to the doctor and when I got on the scale it made me feel so sad and disgusting. Throughout my pregnancy I've been pretty good about taking it as 'it's the baby this is healthy' (which has been a rough back and forth fight with myself considering I used to struggle with anorexia for a long time) but these past two weeks I have been blowing UP. I was 102 pre and now I weigh 140.😣😣😣 I have never weighed anything close to this in my life. It's really started dragging on my confidence, everything swelling and lugging around this bowling ball of a stomach. I love fashion and I couldn't stand to be at the mall looking through clothes, all the things that normally were flattering before now I just feel like a cow in. Nothing cute fits at all. I can't wear heels because they make my feet swell to sizes I didn't know were possible. Feeling sad and over this pregnancy I really want my body back. 😞 but at the same time I am always so hungry at this point and I don't want to deprive my daughter of any nutrional needs ! 😩