Miscarriage...

My emotions are getting the best of me right now, and I need to let them out... I keep telling myself it not true, my number will go back up, they are wrong.. I don't feel like I am going to have a miscarriage.. I don't know if it will feel more real when I see the blood, feel the cramps.. I'm nor sure.. all though this is not my first, this is the only one that I know it's gonna happen.. and I fear it.. I'm scared that I will give up.. I'm so beside myself right now and I feel alone..