a little tired of feeling this way

Honesty to the max • Because honesty is the way to go
He abuse me emotionally.
He made me take a drug test just because I hung out with friends who smoke weed.
He wanted to know my every move
He wanted my location on 24/7
He wanted me to reply as soon as possible
Even though he was just an asshole in the relationship I miss his touch and I miss his smile. This relationship was so toxic yet I stayed a whole year. I loved him and I still do. I know I deserve better and I just write this to relieve some pain and thoughts that are just hurting me inside. I rather smile and say that I'm fine even though I miss that asshole so much. I'm sorry, I'm finally done.