Now what?

Ok since October we tried Clomid which I already ovulate so I feel I tortured myself for nothing. I took my last cycle in January. I am waiting to see a RE in April for an IUI and at this point I've gave up trying. I stopped tracking and all last month. The only thing we can figure is that my hubby got a 2 when it comes to the forming of sperm. I am so over the whole process. Everyone is getting pregnant having abortions don't want the babies n I'm looking just like Lord give me the same chance... Sitting waiting to see AF in a few days I will never get my hopes up again....