hellp syndrome.....

. ftm here developed hellp end of pregnancy and it was terrible. Had to go on magnesium drip and was admitted 5 days. Has anyone been diagnosed with hellp at first pregnancy and had a second or third child? I am terrified to have anymore children as what i went through was life threatening. I am 5 weeks PP and still feel terrible. Just wondering what the chances are id develop this in second pregnancy? Any stories would be helpful and comforting...