Starting over!

For those who read my last post about me finally breaking down and that whole confusing post about me being mad with my fiancé and my grandpa lol I decided to hold off on a lot of things. Like planing a wedding and TTC. I realize it's not the best time right now. Our finances are not together and we just need to work on us. I think I'm making a good decision but he seems a bit disappointed. I know we wants a baby but it just wouldn't be right at this time. I feel like it would just be straight up dumb! I'm even thinking about getting on birth control. He's says he will stick by my decision but I can tell he's disappointed. 😔 what do yall think?? Thanks in advance! AGAIN! Lol!