Simply Tired

My Husband and I have been ttc for 3 years now. After 2 years of nothing we tried Clomid. We did a couple of cycles and had a chemical pregnancy. At that point I needed a break. We haven't tried medicine in 8 months just trying to track my ovulation with tests. I am so so so so tired of this consuming my life. All of our siblings have what we want so desperately but can't ever seem to achive. My husband works out of town so sometimes it is hard to get the right time but there have been so many times he was home or close enough that I traveled to him and we get nothing. I hate it for my husband, for myself, for my parents, for his parents and everyone that is rooting for us. I have stopped lookin at my app so I try not to stress over when my period is going to start. But even then I try to do the math in my head. Everyone says just forget it and when you stop trying is when it will happen but they have no clue how hard it is. All I want is a baby more then anything and no matter how many times I talk about it it never is any easier.