Got my hopes up 😔

So I've been TTC for almost a year now and AF was due the 23rd and it never showed. Then on the 24th it didn't show either so, today I was getting excited and getting my hopes up and I go to lay in bed and what do you know, surprise AF showed up. I started crying my eyes out, I don't want my kids far apart in age and my son is going to be 3 soon. I still can't stop crying because I really thought this was my month for a BFP and it turns out it was just a big let down. I'm starting to really give up! 😩😩