I thought it would get easier...

I thought as my body healed and time passed that it would get easier, but it feels like it's getting harder.  As the pregnancy symptoms fade and the pink line gets lighter it becomes more real that my baby is really gone.  I hoped this would allow to start moving forward, but I just feel broken. I'm feeling so empty, so terribly alone, and defeated.  Did anyone else feel worse with time instead of better?