Just frustrated... Venting

I feel like everyone else is getting signs from their little angels and they're all seeing rainbows so they're full of hope. I've had nothing. No signs my baby is watching over me. No signs of a rainbow baby in my future. This just really sucks. I know I should be happy with my sweet 6yr old daughter but I really wanted to be a mom again. Maybe I'm not supposed to have a rainbow baby. 💔