Baby shower blues

Shaveta
This is my second baby and I didn't have a shower with my first ( a little boy) I'm having a girl this time but no one wants to throw me a shower once again. People ask all the time will I have one and I just say no I don't want one but deep down I know no one loves me enough to actually throw or help me throw one... Am I overreacting? I just want to feel special sometimes