I'm a sixteen year old girl who always has had a very sexual mind.

Since i was very young like 7 i liked boobs and looking at videos of people do stuff it really intrigued me and excited me i started watching porn at 9 years old and me and my my friend (she's a girl) would touch each other. I have very strict parents i was never allowed to go out for too long and only was allowed to go to certain places, so i started talking to people on the internet. At 12 i sent my first nude to a boy. Then after that i started talking to a lot of people on the internet; older people and i would send them nudes but i never showed them my picture so it never really felt personal 

Even though i didnt know them. 

i dont know.why i did it 

But then i started texting  this 28 year old and i sent him pictures of myself and my body he didn't even have to ask it was me who wanted to show him. He always was like no you're too young so don't send me anything explicit, anyways it didn't last too long we stopped texting after a months maybe. Then i started texting this 26 year old he knew how i looked like and we like got in this 'relationship' I wasn't in love with i just kinda continued it because i really am bored with my life i dont have much friend and barely go out because of my parents

But yeah, we started talking on the phone and one thing led to another ended up having phone sex the first time i reallly liked it it really excited me. But than after the third time I didn't like it anymore but still did it i also sent him nudes. Than I discovered that he was texting another girl so i broke up. Keep in mind that i have never done anything with a guy in real life. 

Than after him i started texting this boy and after like a day i sent him pictures of my body. Something changed in me after that. I feel disgusted by myself.  I'm mentally ill. I'm so tired of always getting yelled at by my mother who's so strict on me. Today she found a hentai manga in my room and got so angry. I wasn't even reading it. I was gonna throw it away but she already had founf it and she was like your not worthy of my trust and she said that she would go through my phone every now and then to see what im watching. Now i feel so paranoid knowing that every moment she can go through my phone and she's so sneaky she goes into my room searching for stuff. I'm mentally exhausted really i feel trapped. I feel like I can't do this any longer