suicidal dreams

What does dreaming of suicide mean? I've dreamt twice this past week of me being around hundreds of people & I didn't like it so much that I killed myself once by jumping of a cliff and the other time by jumping out of a building. I also dreamt my cousin commited suicide & my parents died. These are all lucid dreams since I've been taking my antipsychotics & im waking myself up by crying so much in my sleep. What could it mean & is it normal?