Finding out your child is gay

I'm not sure where post this. I know when came out I was beaten(had go hospital) . Then I taken church where prayed time and time again. Then when trying being straight failed. Believe me I tried a nd prayed fast did therapy . My pastor kicked me out church publicly in middle of service. I had catch bus over 2 hours to my house since my parents told me to. My family shut me out some friends turned back on me. I started down an ugly path drinking and being used even few suicide attempts. It was dark and ugly . I felt alone and unwanted. It breaks me to see today parents still do this. I made it but another friend didn't in his hospital room he made promise him to love myself. With tears streaming I swore him I try. He took so much drugs shutting down body. I called his family no one came. The doctor told me off record I was his family could have right his body. I cried hard. The day he died the doctors wife came in sat with me held me . They paid for his cremation. I spread his ashes in beach and by studio he danced at. I cried but I kept my promise. I cut off all negative contact. I found place stay got a job at daycare and joined another church who openly accepted me. It wasn't easy but I made it. He didn't physically but spiritual wise he made it in me.

I don't write this for sympathy or approval on my life. I don't need that . I wrote this because felt it needed be shared. Always reach for love .