Nightmares

Ugh... Sleep has become difficult I don't get to sleep until 4 or 5 am and wake up at least twice for the bathroom and then to get my step daughter off to school... So I get about 4 hours of sleep. Maybe 6 if I managed to go back to bed after she leaves.

Now this week she at her grandmother so I don't have to get up but I still wake up 😢. And I have so much do do I'm still not getting the full 7-8 hours. I work full time as well.

Now nightmares have started when I do get some sleep!!! WTF?!

Last night I dreamt that I went I for my ultrasound and they had already done it and baby wasn't growing... I'm like wait but I just got here how could you have done it already and he's moving around right now. I was confused they look at each other and tell me to follow them and motion for me to go into a room before them. They lock me into a room. Panicking I try the door and it's locked so I start screaming. At that moment I feel Sammy kick and I'm like I'll do anything to protect my baby and start opening the drawers and find a 💉 I grab it and uncap it just as the door opens. I react by stabbing the person who walks in ready to run for the door, but I freeze it's my boyfriend. I drop to ground to hold him and he says he loves me that it's ok.

I woke up screaming. He's at work but I can't shake the dream.