Can't take it anymore 😢

I think I need to take a break from TTC we have been trying for 9 months and AF came today so it's on to month #10 I was at work when af came (2 days late) and I seriously bawled for 15mins in the stall! I know it hasn't been as long as most but it has consumed every part of my life and I'm so depressed 😢. Plus I'm an emotional eater so in the past 9 months I have gained a lot of weight which I know is not good when TTC. We have three months before we can see a doctor so I'm going to try and "relax it will happen" and focus on losing some weight. Good luck ladies!