advice.... again

You all probably hate me, because all I do is have boy drama but I really need to tell someone. After having someone comment on my post about me feeling jealous that two of my best friends liked my ex crush, I realized maybe I do still like him. And now I'm 100% sure. But how do I tell my friends? They really do think I'm over him and talk about him all day long. It kills me, but if I tell them then they'll most likely get upset or not really talk to me. And then with my guy best friend I just found out he doesn't like me he likes a guy. He's bi. But I felt upset that he didn't like me, because it really did seem like he did. And I also feel selfish for being so sure it was me. Now I have two best friends who like the same guy as me and a guy bff who likes a guy and I feel disappointed. My life is a mess.