this ttc thing is so depressing for me😭

Karen
Been trying for years after my miscarriage on 2013. I did everything i could and still there's still no rainbow 😭 . I see people around with their strollers and it just breaks my heart and ask myself why I couldn't have one? 
I'm really praying to God for a miracle to happen mylife. I tested today which i think im 8dpo and its a bfn i guess. I cant really tell if its a positive or negative,hate to get my hopes up so i let my mind think that its bfn . Really makes me feel depressed 😭