Will I ever not be NOTHING?

Please no rude people. I do that enough on my own.....I cant seem to change. It's like everyday its an excuse or I'm so depressed that i half ass anything. Tomorrow never comes, im stuck in the same shitty situation literally for years now. I tremendously lack self discipline and consistency. I need to stick to what I say. Get things done that I need to get done on a daily basis. Be an adult. I have a 9 month old and while i take great care of her im not an adult. I cant even do things i dont want to do when they are good for me and I need to get them done to have a better life. Im stuck in a house full of people who dont help me with my child and i have to lean on them to use their car. Im losing hope in myself and my kid doesnt deserve a mom like me. I want to be better. I'm 30 and this is my life.