(ex?) boyfriend problems 😕

Jo
My mom thinks my boyfriend verbally abuses me and he basically won't acknowledge it after I've argued with him for the past day. He always interrupts me and tells me to calm down saying it's a nice way of saying to shut up because all I do is b*tch at him all the time. I just don't know even know how to begin to let go of our over a year relationship. I have no one but him. I don't have any friends so letting him go means I'll be alone. I don't know what to do. I don't want to be alone. Don't get me wrong I have faults too but he's just mean and insensitive. 
Update: he pushed me to make a choice so I ended things.