Antsy

I'm getting insanely antsy... I hate not knowing how things are gonna go. Am I gonna have an easy delivery? Is it gonna be absolutely horrific? How am I gonna be once she gets here? Am I gonna lose my mind and fail miserably? Or am I gonna be fine and everything is gonna be great? So many things I want to know how they are gonna happen.... Ugh, I dunno. I'm just having a weird day. Haven't had one in awhile so I guess I'm due. 😥. Stress sucks. I just need to stop thinking about shit I can't control....

Sorry. Just venting.