I had a check up today. I'm 17 weeks and 5days with my 4th. I have an anterior placenta and a complete previa. My dr says since I had a csection with my 3rd baby and my placenta is anterior that it's not looking good. When the placenta attaches in the front there is a pretty good risk of it embedding into the scar tissue. She will check it in 2 weeks to see for sure if this is what happened. She says she just wants to prepare me for what we could be facing. She told me that if it is enbedded it is unlikely I will be leaving the OR without a hysterectomy. It took everything in me not to start crying right there. I know this will be my 4th and many might think oh well you have a lot of kids but I don't want that choice taken from me. I also don't want to go through the changes that will throw my body into. I'm scared and I don't want to tel anyone and worry them but at the same time I want to scream it. Then I come home from my appointment figure out dinner and my kids are just being difficult about eating. My husband starts acting like a fool freaking out at them which threw me over the edge. I told him to stop being such a bad example with his attitude and he got so mad at me. Now he won't even look at me. It's bed time and I don't even feel like laying next to him and feeling his anger. I guess i just needed to vent about my day to get it out