disability support plz read

I don't like to think of myself as disabled but sometimes my mental illness the many of them dibilitate me I'm 13 I have severe OCD depression I have conversion disorder people even thought I had skitsafrania I don't know how to spell that and I have ptsd from massive surgerys at a young age and going to hospitals soo often I feel cursed and I wanna know if anyone is like my I'm on sertuline hydroxazine lymotragyene I used to be on Selexa, clonodine , larazapam,  and honestly so much more I can't even recall I'm suicidal and scared I just wanna talk I don't wanna die I just wanna feel. Ether and I've. Even in 5 mentle hospitales I have a service dog as well does this make me disabled? Do u have any encouragement? And story's? And cute pictures? I just wanna feel respected and better and ya I go to therapy  I don't know where to put this and periods are my biggest trigger at the moment so I'm posting it here I'm not I have halistionations tho