Do you look forwad to getting pregnant again after a rough pregnancy?

Znb • Ttc after MMC in May.
I'm on modified bed rest at the moment and I need people to talk to. So I have had a relatively smooth pregnancy up until 31 weeks. Before that it was just me worrying constantly because we lost our first baby. At 31 weeks I noticed some brown spotting and went to the ER and was diagnosed with preterm labour. I'm 1cm dilated and was put on modified bed rest. I really feel depressed and down. I feel incomplete. I feel like im missing something. I feel sad that I can't be "normal" and have a healthy pregnancy. Somehow I'm blaming myself for what's happening. I don't feel that I want to get pregnant again even though we wanted a big family. I know that there are women with stories that are worse than mine and I shouldn't complain. But I really feel depressed. Can you share your stories with tough pregnancies and how you managed? 
Thanks everyone!