Just need some encouragement

Sa
Hi Ladies,
My name is Sarah. 😊 DH and I were going to wait until after a family wedding next month to start trying. We decided yesterday to TTC instead of me starting a new pack of BC. I was so scared/nervous for some reason. Like, we were doing something wrong. Lol. We've been together 12 years and married 9. It's taken me so long to be somewhat ready for kids. I've just never felt like I was good enough... worthy enough for a baby. For something so special. 
Now instead of being nervous about that I'm nervous about how long it might take after being on BC for 12 years. Lol. Smh. 
Has anyone else felt this way?