New dr after specialist

Lisa • 36 years old, first time mom after 7 years ttc, baby boy Colton born Aug. 23rd 👶. Lost 2nd baby at 7 weeks.
So my dr has done nothing but scare me with bad news every time I see him. I'm now being referred to a specialist for fluid on back of baby's neck. Called it cystic hygroma. And possibly spina bifida occulta. Specialist may want to do an amneciotesis. 
Still have subchoronic hematoma but it hasn't grown:) 
Praying for the best outcome from specialist next week. And then looking at seeing a dr who doesn't make me cry and have no hope for a healthy pregnancy and baby when I leave his office.