Serious post just needed to vent ... I'm sorry

So March 25th 2017 is where my story begins.. I went out to Norwalk for my best friends birthday it was her and one of our best friends.. we went out to eat then we went to a bar. It started out as a great night thought it was going to be a nice girls night out but I was wrong .. when we got the bar I had about two drinks (the first one spilled) then we were dancing the night away had about three shots two hours later feeling fine didn't feel tipsy grabbed another drink (captain and coke i was still fine because it was literally all soda ) then I met a guy towards the end of the night he offered to buy me a drink I said sure why not 🤷🏼‍♀️. I go with him to buy the drink and as he's buying it for me I start looking around and he hands it to me I go off a couple of minutes later to go find my friends tell him I'll be right back mind you i feel fine went to the bathroom everything was good 😊 then all of a sudden I see a girl I know who's my best friends cousin and I'm telling her about my new tattoo (btw she works at this bar) so when the bar closes I told her I'd show it to her there's about two works left behind the bar then there's another guy I met so her and I went into the corner so I can she her so I quickly pulled down my pants to about half way down my thigh to keep myself covered up and she looks really quickly then my best friend comes over (she's so drunk at this point) starts yelling causing A scene so everyone starts looking so I'm trying to pull my pants quickly as possible before all the guys who were left wouldn't see and then we get kicked out and she's outside in front of cops yelling in my face and my other best friend that was with us tells me to not say anything just let her yell she's just drunk so I say I know it's okay so the friend who was yelling at me walks off .. mind you she told me about 6 hours earlier that she may have been sexually assaulted because the bar we were at that night was the same one she had to walk home from because this "guy she knew" lived by her house so they were going to walk home she says she dosent even remember how she got home. So back to we're I left off .. so I start freaking out needed to go to the bathroom I start crying I'm stressing out this is my first time here why would she walk off ? After everything she told me ? So I ended up peeing in an alley I was feeling sober like not even tipsy but then all of a sudden I feel weak I have no idea what's going on but I'm with my other best friend who drove us there the plan was to go back to her house in Stratford but we never made it .. instead these guys offer us a ride and I'm hesitant on getting in the car but my best friend goes get in there going to bring us to our car at this point I'm still crying freaking out just want to go home and now my eyes are starting to shut and I'm not understanding and I'm getting weaker.. now I'm getting really scared . We got to her car I go to get in the front seat thinking amen we're going to your house she goes get in the back so confused and just getting weaker not being able to speak I just hop in the backseat .. little did I know the boys that drive us there were coming with us ... we ended up at hotel room at this point I feel nauseous mind you I still didn't feel drunk I've never experienced this feeling before . So I start puking in the parking lot hoping to sober up a little the guy offered to let me go up stairs and use the toilet because I said I had to pee again so I went figured why not my friend followed so when I get into the room I run to the bathroom and I see the shower I was thinking hey get in the shower it will wake you up and you can get the puke off you so I start undressing and they open the door there all just standing there watching me so I get in the shower when the water hit my face my eyes started to itch like Crazy and now I'm getting really scared because my legs are starting to get weak thinking in the back of my mind my best friends here she won't let anything bad happen well I guessed wrong .. I tried to get out of the shower I feel my slef  passing out I'm trying to fight it but I can't I fall right out of the shower the boys come running in and so does my best friend.. the guy grabs me a towel and stands me making sure I'm okay I go back out to where the two beds are and I just go and lay on one I couldn't see anything anymore so I tell my friend let me sleep for 30 minutes then we can leave she goes okay I blacked out all of a sudden I hear a loud bang on the door I'm looking around my best friend is gone and there's a guy on top of me from behind inside me and before I could scream of push him off I blacked out again I wake up maybe another 30 minutes later and I still hear the pounding on the door there's a guy putting his dick in my mouth before I push away I blacked out I thought I was dreaming I would have never thought this would happen to me I was with my "best friends " my parents trusted both them and I . So we all wake up because my best friend was like let's go I hurry get up get my clothes on and everything and just quickly rushed out but I asked who called my cell phone and one of the guys said it was him and I shook my head and ran to the car..  she didn't even ask me if I was okay it was a quite ride to my car but my eyes were still burning so I jumped in my car and drove home as fast as I could .. I never went to the police which I should have .. I just had to get tested for an STD because I'm having issues and I just started dating my boyfriend and we didn't use protection so I may have just fucked both of our lives because I wasn't thinking I didn't wanna tell anyone this story of have to re live it Im sorry that's all I can keep saying maybe if I didn't go I would have been fine . I'm sorry . 

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