Im not ready💔

My babies due date is coming up this March 19..and im not ready to face this. I want to hold my baby so bad, I should be able to hold them in my arms, but instead, my Pisces baby will be in the arms of God. I trust him to take care of my baby, I just want my child with me. I would have been a teen mom, but that doesn't mean I can't mourn just as much for the loss of my baby, people will tell me I should be relived but there's nothing more heartbreaking :( RIP baby Pisces :(