Just lost my baby. Im lost

I'm at a loss for words. I've never experienced a miscarriage. I went to the ER 6 hours ago with my husband and we were told 2 hours later that we lost the baby. The hospital was rotten and insensitive about it. I am just so lost. We tried for almost 3 years to be met with loss after being so ready. What do I do? What do I say? The hurt won't go away. The pains just getting worse. I can't stand seeing my husband cry, he never cries! Not being able to help him is as unbearable as losing my little one. I'm so lost. What do I do? I actually held it in my hand when I passed it tonight... I feel like a monster.