I feel bad... but

Am I just the most horrible mom to be? feel depressed and upset because I haven't already had this baby? Like I've been having false labor for atleast a week... I'm so tired of feeling everything, from horrible contractions to diarrhea etc. I mentally am just sooooo over it, like I give up baby can stay in forever. I'm just miserable 😭 and tired of hearing how pregnant I look and being asked when I'm having baby. Ugh, I am just sooooo over it at 38+4 😒... am I horrible?