Im turning into an ugly person ....

My bf came over to wash is clothes I have not spoken to him in a couple days due to the fact I'm 33 weeks pregnant and I keep getting told my baby boy wont make it ....anyway im hurting I dnt want to be around anyone including him but he doesn't seem to get it ..I lashed out tonight I was petting my cat and he simply says he wants to be pet he loves affection my response was no I dnt feel like petting u ...and I go y are u here ? Dnt u realize I dnt want to see u ...I kinda let out a cry and my anger came out I said I wish I would have never met u ... His response was wow really then u wouldn't be pregnant and I said exactly! And I wouldn't have to feel this pain and lose my son .I told him to leave in the morning and not return before I shut my bedroom door he yelled out I love u ...I didn't say it back ...I'm usually not this cold hearted bit#% but this pain is changing me I don't see a point in continuing this relationship I need to be alone I need to take the time to learn how to cope I know he is the father but I can't look at him it hurts too much ...he wants to be loved but I have no love to give ...pain really does change ppl ...idk what to do ....sorry for the emotional break down ...