High stress work, pregnancy, and anxiety.

🌟🌛Tabi🌜🌟

So, this is gonna be a long one.

I have had crippling anxiety my whole life. I grew up in a very abusive environment and it left its mark. Anyways, I always quit my jobs because it just gets to be too much. I currently have a job that the management is trying to drive me out of (I.e only scheduled six hours a week. 12 hours a paycheck. Just got paid today, $110.) I have always been a top tier employee. Always. I had been getting four to five days a week, announced my pregnancy, and I'm suddenly "too slow" so they cut me to six hours a week. I'd talked to management, said that usually when they cut your hours that badley they are trying to get you to quit. My manager says, "Yep. That's usually how it goes." So basically she admitted, yes, they want me gone. Which believe me, I want me gone too. My problem is I just feel so fucking awful about it. I'm 24 weeks pregnant. I need to do better for my baby girl. My boyfriend keeps telling me I'm doing my best and its not my fault, which I agree with, but this is too much stress. I'd believed I had friends at work, but my manager told me I'm also getting hours cut because they all complain about me so much. Which, okay, why was this not discussed with me? Why is it they can bitch and that automatically means I'm awful? So this is very hard on me. I've had bleeding multiple times during this pregnancy, always while I'm at work. I am not sure if it is because I'm stressing so badly or not, but my cervix is also thinning. I have an appointment on Monday to check on it.

My question here is, would it be awful to just not go back? I know people have had it worse, and I have had it far worse as well. I just can't take this shit anymore. It is not even close to worth it, for simply $220 a month. That is a disgustingly low amount of money. I mean, how am I even contributing to the household at all with that?

Please help. Advise needed.

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