Losing baby girl to Hydrops

Jaymi
I am currently pregnant with our rainbow baby girl. I am 23wks. But a few weeks ago on May 8th we found out our baby had fluid in her abdominal cavity. Overtime after seeing a specialist they noticed there was fluid in her tummy, around her heart and a little behind her head (Hydrops). We were crushed and absolutely devastated. I had never heard of this condition until now. On top of that babys heart seems to be weak and according to the specialist is going into heart failure. They have told me it's all just a waiting game as of now. Nothing that they can do, and I just let her pass since they're assuming she won't make it to term. According to them even if she were to make it to term, they couldn't do anything anyway. We also recently found out this could be due to Turners. I will know more after amnio results. We are just at a loss. We TTC for awhile had our mc then finally got PG again. Is it wrong that I just want to start over!? I have distanced myself from this baby.😣
I love her so much already, but I have no idea how to cope accept to start planning for our next little one...