Long distance marriage.

I really need to vent.

I got married December 27th 2016 in Mexico, my hubby doesn't have any papers so he can't come to the US. I came back on March 8th to put his application in, and I've been working to save up money for whenever he can come we can have our own place over here. I went to visit for 3 days on April. Pretty much over a month ago I did that last trip.. I am missing the hell out of him. I obviously miss him every day, but I don't know what it is about today that has me missing him even more, I feel miserable, I feel like any moment I'm just going to ball my eyes crying. I don't have much friends because last year I found out of of my best friends was saying rumors about me so I just kicked her out of my life. Then my other best friend, when I got engaged she started to say how I was moving too fast how I was dumb for wanting to get married. Like OK, advice is welcomed. But not in the way she'd tell me. So like a month after I got engaged she just quit talking to me. Then on my wedding day in the morning I get a message I guess apologizing. But I truly don't think she's sorry. So I tell my sister everything and I think I've annoyed her telling her I miss him (she hasn't said it because she's always an open ear for me) but I just needed to vent. I feel so stressed out and just so down pretty much every day, maybe some days more than others. And people tell me i should go out, but I just don't feel like that brings my mood up because it's when I feel more lonely so I just stay at home when I don't work. Idk point is, I miss the living fuck out of him 😭😭😭😭😭 and here are freaking cute pictures of us 😍(So thank you if you finished reading this!)