coming to terms

I think I've finally came to terms with my infertility. I've had one failed iui with PCOS and low motility sperm from my hubby. I'm on my second iui, which I originally wasn't going to do but I did for my husband. Doctor said the other day that I only produced 1 follicle, similar to my last iui. Except, this time it's much smaller 15mm (last time was 20mm) I really haven't been holding onto much hope this time around and am pretty much just going through the motions. I've decided I'm done ttc, for now and I'm ready to focus on just making money. I never pictured myself as an older mom, but maybe that's how my life will be. I'm planning on trying IVF in about 5 years or so.