baby fever is stronger than ever

So I was walking through target with the bf and we walked past the baby swimsuits and I immediately was happy but sad, darn baby fever strikes again. I think what doesn't help is almost a year ago I miscarried at roughly 6 weeks and would have been buying little summer clothes for him or her if it had stuck. Although it was a surprise baby, I still wish that she had stayed (I felt like it would have been a girl that is)