AF due 3/15. Having those feelings...

Chéri • Never give up hope
Af is due the 15th for me. Been having those 'feelings' I'm am all too familiar with after having 9 miscarriages in 8 years. Last one was last summer & was really harsh, d&c, etc. SO terrified to test. Does that seem odd? I feel like I should be excited. But, I'm so scared.